I feel like i wanna die right now... Seriously... My life seems to be useless from this point on... People will never understand what it feels like to be me... People will never understand what its like to be going through what i am right now... Just had a little quarrel with my dad... And its about me... Seems like nothing at all... But seriously irritating... He doesn't really understand what is the real deal all about... He just keep emphasizing his point which is like the totally 100% sure correct when it is not... Come on man... I read every single article about what i'm having... His point really won't make me any better... But actually will make it worse... I know i'm a very big disappointment to him arh... Because i can't be a great person who will bring glory for the family or something like that... Things has changed... I'm not going to be an amazing son anymore... I can't follow in his footsteps thats for sure... I can only rely on academics... Which i'm not even good at... I can't do much of a physical activities because of what i'm going through... It really hurts... My heart that is... Upon knowing such things... Life is seriously unfair for me... I might be looking cheerful outside... Its because i don't really want you people to worry about me... Oh well... If he wants to be disappointed with me forever also i don't care... I know its not my fault... I didn't really ask for this to happen... I can still be great... But not as before... My moral has gone down the drain... My self esteem is lost... Just like a fifty storey building collapsing... And now i'm rebuilding it... Brick by brick... Bit by bit... It won't be that early to be finished but perseverance is what i need the most... Till then... Cherios...