Ever since i start fasting, i've been eating so little... Much lesser than the usual... Its super weird... After a whole day not eating, break fast not eating much... First day was only a few pieces of lontong... Second day a bowl of porridge... Today only a bowl of macaroni soup... I don't know what has gotten into me... A few days ago my weight was 71kg... Now, just measured, 59kg... I'm getting weaker as days passes by... I'm still sick but this is kinda drastic don't you think... Like someone said to me... I'm not sick to that extend but just trying to adapt... To me... I'm sick and its getting worse... I can adapt to changes in a rapid speed if i want to but the more i try right now, it changed from bad to worst... All i can do now is just relax my mind and hope for the better... And if it gets better, i'll be thankful... But if it doesn't, pray for me that i get better...
On and Off... Off and On... Fickle as i'll always be... But true in the heart i am...
"Have you ever had this kind of feeling, you care about a person so much but you wouldn't wanna get into a relationship although you wanted to because you scared that you will lose the person through that path plus the fear of rejection just overwhelms you but through it all and no matter what, you just wanna be as close as you can be with the person?"
Fickle? There's a bit of it... Over possessive? I think there is... Selfish? Serious about this? If i'm given the chance, i'll prove it with the best out of my heart... But... Dream On Fiq... Lack of confidence? HELL YES! I think about how the other feels... Kalau tak ader jodoh aper nk buat kan...
"Mungkin cinta saya tidak seagung cinta Nabi Muhammad pada Siti Khatijah, atau tidak sehebat cinta Zulaika pada Nabi Yusof... Tapi apa yang saya tahu, saya perlukan awak dalam hidup saya..."
