DAMN! I am so hating the situation right now... Why must it be like this? What the heck man... I wanted to go for Airborne so much... its the number one course i've been waiting for... and i happened to be busy to go for it... Argh! I hate this so much... then now NDP... no matter trainer or contingent commander, i also wanted to go for it... but i got the same activity that is in the way... which is. . . Annual Kayaking Expedition... must it happen? Must it go this way? why? Why? WHY? So sad... i'm so hating it... maybe its not my luck to go this year... or maybe there might be something bad going to happen if i go... only god knows my path of life... But i know i'll still have time to train... there's always next year... My only highest goal for this year is Basic Diver Course left... I must achieve that for this year... i'm gonna fill up my free time with swimming training... lower my 2.4km timing to 8.30mins... do 50 push ups in one minute... 50 sit ups in one minute... i don't care if my body turns so black and worst than bangla... all i know is that by the end of this year, i wanna be super fit and achieve BDC... i'll be the most happiest boy in this world if i were to achieve that... nothing else matters... my heart is closer to Ncc than what normal guys are chasing for... i told you all that i gave up... what's the good thing about getting heartaches and all sort when you can get something that benefits your life in the long term... correct or not? Betul tak betul? Teo bo? Reminder: Life is unfair... you won't get everything you want unless you are god... Winners never quit, Quitters never win... No pain No Game... It isn't over till its over... expect the unexpected... Never regret what you've done cause its no use... don't cry over spilt milk, Just lick it off the floor... Last was a joke... Hehe...