Sometimes i just don't understand people at all... especially her... it makes me feel awkward if i don't talk to her cuz she's the one who wanted to be back as friends... when i talk to her, replies are short or no reply at all... well... if this is what you want, its fine... when i'm seacrhing for you, you ran so far until no form of communication is applicable... when you are lonely, only then you come back... to me... i stood there for 4 years... waited and waited... you come... you go... many a times... yet i'm being so good... so kind... sometimes i wonder... what did i do to get people stepping over my head everytime? My kindness? I'm too kind that people took advantage of me... i didn't fight back when people critisize... i didn't sound off people who make use of me... i'll just keep quiet... let people bully me... but nevermind... its okay... i just don't wanna hurt people... i know that if i let my temper out, somebody is gonna get hurt physically and mentally... so i will remain silent... as a turtle... hide inside my shell... i'm packing my bag... off to Hq again for Advance Drill Course... Till Friday... Thursday is if everything goes smoothly... Toodles...